2019 is going to be over soon and so much has happened! I feel like I have grown more this year than any other year and I am proud of myself for that. Because its been a while since I’ve updated you guys on my life, I’ve decided to do so as well as make an announcement.
Creating Reckless Behavior The Series has REALLY slowed me down. All the energy its taken to create a web series has made me realize I don’t have to attend everything and be everywhere. Although I always consider the importance of networking, I now realize that I don’t have to be present at every single event. I have become more selective of how I use my time, because I now have less of it. The free time I do have I just want to be at home relaxing and I no longer feel bad about that. The last few years I would force myself to go to so many places, because I felt it was necessary for me to become successful and known, but at this point in life I just don’t have it in me.
We have two episodes left to film and I’m starting to feel a little melancholy. After spending five months with my cast and crew, I’ve gotten used to being around them and meeting with them every Sunday. Although there have been some bumps in the road, this has been a life changing experience that I would not take back. I can’t wait for you guys to see the final product! I put everything I have into Reckless Behavior and I know it won’t be for everyone, but I hope some people can relate.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about relationships. I am starting to realize that I give a lot of myself to certain people and I don’t get that same energy. Therefore, I have decided to pull back, because it is not fair to be giving someone so much of you and they only give you 60%. The worst feeling is to learn some information about someone close to you from someone else KNOWING that when something takes place in your life you hit them up ASAP. I have also been thinking a lot about my relationship with my mother and how much negative energy she’s brought me over the years. While I love her to death, I now realize that distance is necessary, and I can’t let her negativity and pessimism bring me down or discourage me. Regardless of who the person is or how long you’ve known them, we as people must make it a priority to protect our energy. I’ve always been affected by my mother’s energy, but the stress I feel from the rise of QMC and the process of creating Reckless Behavior The Series has finally made me realize that distancing myself is necessary for my own sanity. In addition to all of this, I am finally in a place where I feel like that I am being treated how I deserve to be treated by someone of the opposite sex. It’s really made me more cognizant of my worth and appreciative. Although I’ve never considered myself to be anti men I was definitely starting to feel a type of way especially after a situationship I was in earlier this year. However, having someone supportive, consistent and loving has put things in a different perspective.
I am happy to say I am LOVING my new job. Although there have been a couple uncomfortable encounters, everyone at my job is nice and very friendly. I have now been here for three months and have acclimated pretty well. I have found my work friends, I have found my groove with my tasks and responsibilities and the best part is that there is NO MICROMANAGING. Micromanaging bosses is the one thing I have dreaded about most of my past employers. But this new job I am completely on my own with the occasional check in. I feel so much better working in this kind of environment and it feels good to know that my bosses are one call away and happy to help if I need anything. I’m used to bosses huffing and puffing when I reach out to them for assistance, so my new position is a breathe of fresh air. Plus they just gave us permission to work from home once a week so you know I’m ecstatic!
Because Reckless Behavior The Series comes out in January, I would like to dedicate all my energy into the finished product and promotion. Therefore, I will be taking a writing hiatus until next year. This week I will publish a few more articles then the hiatus will begin. Thank you guys for all your support and feedback! I appreciate you so much and I hope that the rest of your year is fulfilling and rewarding.