I Never Thought I’d Be in Pain Every Single Day


August has been an extremely stressful month for me. I don’t remember if I’ve mentioned this before in any of my blogs, but two years ago I started dealing with carpal tunnel. Going to work eight hours a day, then going home being on my laptop for six more hours PLUS the amount of time I’m on my phone throughout the day, I should have known that something like this was going to happen.

When I first started experiencing pain I made an appointment to go to the doctor. The doctor had me do a few exercises and told me I would be in pain doing those exercises if I “really” had carpal tunnel. He concluded that it was a very mild case and all he could do was recommend exercises and get me a brace. Long story short that hospital visit was useless AF. Regardless of those observational exercises not causing me direct pain, my wrist and fingers were still ON FIRE! The next day, I explained to my job the severity of my pain and they decided to install a slide out tray for my keyboard which made it much easier for me to type. After that I wore my brace everyday and worked through the pain like a real G.

I quit that job in October 2018 and I haven’t experienced any pain… until now. The last two weeks have been horrendous. At first it only stung a little, but I started to notice the pain was now traveling throughout my entire arm. Just holding my arm on my desk to type caused me to experience excruciating pain. Therefore, I dug up the brace I used two years ago. Although the hand brace has been helping me a little, my elbow and entire shoulder have still been stinging. I wanted to go to the doctor, but I had to wait for my new insurance to kick in. Once it did, I went to the doctor and sure enough Waste My Time 2019 was in full affect. The doctor communicated that he’s not sure if I have tendinitis or why I’m in pain. After that he examined my neck and back and explained that he could feel a lot of knots. He asked if I had been stressed out and then he prescribed me a Tylenol-esque pill and gave me some pamphlets with exercises. To be honest, his responses seemed so generic and I wish I would of used that $25 copay for some sushi, but I digress.

The doctor’s appointment was about a week ago. Since then I have posted on Facebook to get feedback from my friends and family and honestly that was more useful than that punk ass appointment. Most people suggested CBD oil, acupuncture and massage therapy. Because the pain has now traveled to my neck and back, I have decided to book a massage today. I’m REALLY hoping that this massage helps me. It’s getting to the point where I don’t want to go to work, work on my writing or even chill with friends, because I just feel so sore and uncomfortable 24/7.

Following these recent events, I was inspired to post something on Twitter about taking the little things for granted. I never thought I would wake up so discomforted and have to take pills every damn day just to lessen the pain and be able to function. I never thought I’d be unmotivated to write, because it literally hurts me to do so. Thank God everyday, because you never know when something can come about and change your circumstances and life. With that being said, everyone have an amazing day and remember to stay motivated. I know this too shall pass, I am just trying to stay positive and not let it get to me. Love ya’ll!


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