I’ve always considered myself someone who doesn’t like change. It’s easier for me to stick with what I’m used to and comfortable with, because the idea of change gives me anxiety and I begin to fear the unknown. In recent years I started to realize that living this way has kept me in a box.… Continue reading JANUARY= ADAPTING TO CHANGES
Painted upon her empty canvas Used me to get her advances. I was lost she made me feel found She was distressed but I made her sound. We were going through the motions But I guess I’ll toss my love to the ocean: Ancestors, ancestors hear my plea Please send a woman who’ll love me.
Photo by Gabby K on Pexels.com I started taking birth control when I was about 17 and continued to take it until I was about 23. Needless to say the minute I got off of it I ended with a child; He's six now! Three years ago I got on it again after slipping up… Continue reading Off Birth Control & I’m (Slowly) Back
Trapped in a bubble “protected.”My own fears are leaving me neglected.Why do these walls come up once the emotions come out?What am I afraid of?I’m alone.Not because there is no desire for my company.But because company can break my heart.Abandon me.Love me one day and ridicule me the next.I want love just as much as… Continue reading SAFETY NET
For the first time in years, I’ve found myself genuinely happy. Usually my happiness would be connected to a person, place, or tangible thing. It was based on how good life was around me. It wasn’t based around me being the primary source for my happiness. That has been my biggest lesson on my spiritual… Continue reading Why I Won’t Feel Guilty for Being Happy
Clawed hands grasp at the ceiling. Why are the hands here? What does it mean? Death’s claws? I know what makes that image. I know there is a flower on the other end shining in the light. I know what created this image, so why all this fright? It was fear. I was told that… Continue reading Paradigm Shift
If I could give you something priceless for Christmas it would be to hold yourself the way you want a woman to hold you. And be good to yourself that way. To tell yourself all the things you want to hear from a woman. For those voices be your new voice. Your mom’s All the… Continue reading The Lost Man
After two long years I've finally gotten around to releasing the sequel to my very first novel, "Let's Be Friends," and I feel so accomplished. When I first created this novel it was meant to be a short story. I was going to keep it to myself, but the more I kept going back to… Continue reading The New Book “Let’s Be Friends…Again” is Available Now!
Although I've stopped being friends with people in the past, this most recent friendship dissolution definitely hurt me the most. It happened about a week ago and I still can't process that she won't be in my life anymore. I keep reminding myself that everyone is not meant to be in our lives forever. It… Continue reading We Really Aren’t Friends Anymore
My personal self question I’ve been searching for is: Why did l allow myself to be mistreated? Because this is not the first time I’ve allowed myself to be silenced by a man. After my last relationship l really noticed a pattern. I’m attracted to financially stable Latins, due to the financial stability they're usually… Continue reading 10/06/2020 Thoughts