Help Wanted: Single Black Female Seeks Love while Being Emotionally Available It was a typical Monday on my commute to work when it hit me—I’m emotionally unavailable. I’ve said it before, but the actual realization hit me like bricks. I’m not sure what triggered this realization, but it took everything to hold back my tears. … More I’m Emotionally Unavailable, but I like you…
Watching them kick the front door in was satisfying but not as gratifying as seeing his face when he began to realize what was going on. You see, I had spent five months watching how he moved. I knew his ins, his outs, and his patterns. I knew his strengths, but he forgets that I … More Pleasure and Pain: Part 1
I am a person I breathe I have feelingsI have a life But to you I’m a dollA play thingSomething you deal with until you get tired of it Why even pick me up in the first place?Why not just leave me in my box with my pretty clothes and accessories?I was doing fine and … More Leave me in this box.
I just want to express how proud I am of myself. I did that! I took my pain and I finally decided to look at it like really look at itand not hide from it anymore. And boy did this disrupt my entire lifeand what l had set in motion all my proud coping mechanisms that … More I Did It!
I had an okay weekend. Drank a lot of alcohol and cried less than I did last week. It wasn’t until I turned on the tv to watch my favorite show. I looked at my avatar next to his and realized I should probably sign out and sign up for my own streaming service accounts. … More Diary Of A Mad Black Woman
It was January 27th. This was the official day I was supposed to move out of California. I was so sad that my trip had to be pushed back a week, because I was ready to start my new life. I fought the urge to see it as a sign, because I was attempting to … More I’m Not Bitter, I’m Mad As Hell
Clawed hands grasp at the ceiling. Why are the hands here? What does it mean? Death’s claws? I know what makes that image. I know there is a flower on the other end shining in the light. I know what created this image, so why all this fright? It was fear. I was told that … More Paradigm Shift
We’ve all fallen victim to engaging in a situationship. Sometimes you don’t know you’re in one until it’s over. You get to know someone, you make plans, and create inside jokes. Then, one day the feeling isn’t the same. The openness of “getting to know each other” becomes inconvenient. The other people you both consider … More Why Situationship Break-Ups Hurt
In my 29 years of life, I’ve broken ties with plenty of people. As we all do in our lives. Some on good terms, some on bad terms. I’ve even left a bad taste in few people’s mouths upon my departure. Yet, they’ve always been warranted and needed most times. I’ve always been an advocate … More Severed Ties: Don’t Update Me on People I No Longer Eff With
The world around you is falling apart. People that look like you are being killed over and over by those appointed to protect us. Our brothers and sisters have been found hanging in trees and it’s being labeled as suicide. Your government not only supports your demise but is evolving and coming up with new … More The God In You