“Life isn’t just to be endured, it’s to be enjoyed.”
― Gordon B.Hinckley
Today is the 8th of December and I have been pushing through. Thanks to my notebooks and planner I have gotten all the way organized and now I am just trying to be productive until my birthday. My sorority sisters have been planning a party for me on December 17th and I can not wait. Just when I was thinking my birthday would be dry and boring, my sisters came through and I am so thankful. My last three birthdays have been awful so I really want to enjoy myself this year. The party will be at one of their houses and there will be all of my favorite people and all of my favorite things. I am excited!
The good news is I am almost done Christmas Shopping. This is good, because usually most of my shopping is done December 22nd haha. I have gotten most of my gifts, but my parents are always the hardest to shop for. I always want to buy them gifts above my financial means, because they deserve it. However, who I am I fooling LOL. I have to figure out something I can buy them and not feel the struggle afterwards. I am taking suggestions if anyone has an idea.
I have felt really happy this week. I am finally at a point where I am living in the moment and not stressing about my future. After realizing that trying to force things to happen is what was driving crazy, I have relaxed and decided to take everything day by day. Success will come, love will come and independence will come. I am seriously 23 going on 30 with the way I stress. So I’m done! I am going to live life and stop getting upset over things out of my control. I have only had this epiphany Monday, but the last four days have felt amazing.
I was starting to feel like my brain was fried with plans and goals and more plans. Thinking about today and today only definitely takes a huge load off. Coming from someone who has had multiple breakdowns, I just want to remind everyone it isn’t that serious. I have a lot going for me right now, so I need to stop feeling like I need to keep adding more. You have to leave some room for fun stuff and relaxation. Sometimes a day in the house all day is not the worst thing in the world. I am a super productive person so days in the house make me feel like a bum. I like to run and keep running and I am rarely ever home, because I am making so many moves plus doing the fun things I actually want to be doing. Next year I want to stick to doing the fun stuff on the weekends solely. These little weekday turn ups are killing me softly, so I want to cut back, because our bodies need time to recover and rejuvenate.
I feel comfortable in every aspect of my life except one. I am not going to go into detail, but one aspect of my life I am really worried about. I know that to be successful in this area I will have to change a lot of things about myself. It has been heavy on my mind, but I know with determination and perseverance I will be able to conquer this constant struggle I have. Acknowledging your flaws is the first step, but changing them is the hard part.
I have been around some dope people lately who are very wise. Having these people in my life is definitely a reason for my epiphany. A night out at the bar recently provided me with some great insight to help me live my life more healthy. The things you need the most happen when you least expect it, so stay woke.