I Did It!

I just want to express how proud I am of myself. I did that! I took my pain and I finally decided to look at it like really look at itand not hide from it anymore. And boy did this disrupt my entire lifeand what l had set in motion all my proud coping mechanisms that … More I Did It!

Bang Bang

She feels safe with his guns.  If she feels protected by the guns how often do these unwanted moments come into play?‘ Ya know, for the gun to be activated.  Between those times, who’s protecting whom? Her feeling protected by the guns… Now, what if you take the guns away?Will she still feel protected… Now, l … More Bang Bang

“Her Final Entries” A Collection of Poems & Affirmations, Available Now.

I did it again! But this time with a new self published poetry collection. For about 3 years now I debated back and forth if I should release a new poetry book and if I should take the route of publishing it on my own. It took some time getting the format down and sending … More “Her Final Entries” A Collection of Poems & Affirmations, Available Now.

For Ash

On your darkest daysand on the dayswhere you are not toofond of yourselfjust remember.You are not alone.  On the dayswhere youbeat yourself upfor loving someonewho treated you like shit. The times that you contemplategoing back to them.Just for a second.Just for a penisjust for a hug just to avoid being lonely.You are not alone.  I let … More For Ash

Ending

Painted upon her empty canvas  Used me to get her advances.  I was lost she made me feel found  She was distressed but I made her sound.  We were going through the motions  But I guess I’ll toss my love to the ocean:  Ancestors, ancestors hear my plea  Please send a woman who’ll love me.

SAFETY NET

Trapped in a bubble “protected.”My own fears are leaving me neglected.Why do these walls come up once the emotions come out?What am I afraid of?I’m alone.Not because there is no desire for my company.But because company can break my heart.Abandon me.Love me one day and ridicule me the next.I want love just as much as … More SAFETY NET

Paradigm Shift

Clawed hands grasp at the ceiling. Why are the hands here? What does it mean? Death’s claws?  I know what makes that image. I know there is a flower on the other end shining in the light.  I know what created this image, so why all this fright?  It was fear. I was told that … More Paradigm Shift

The Lost Man

If I could give you something priceless for Christmas it would be to hold yourself  the way you want a woman to hold you.  And be good to yourself that way.  To tell yourself  all the things you want to hear from a woman.  For those voices be your new voice.  Your mom’s All the … More The Lost Man

If You Left

Life is short but the journey to happiness seems never ending.  You take ten steps forward just to take ten back. Starting back at zero, wondering if there is anywhere left for you to go. Should you start over again or let it be whatever it’s going to be? You say your goodbyes and thank those you love.  Unsure … More If You Left