I hope everyone had a nice Christmas and amazing holiday season. Usually I am really in the holiday spirit, but this year was different. For some reason I just wasn’t feeling it. However, I did cheer up for my birthday a couple days ago.
So last Thursday I turned 26. I can’t believe that in 4 years I am going to be 30! I ended up having a better day than I expected. I went to work on my birthday for the FIRST TIME, because I couldn’t afford to take the day off and my boss ended up getting cake and champagne (good champagne, not no Andre’s or Cook’s LOL). Luckily my job is pretty chill, so it wasn’t a stressful day, but I still wish I could of slept in or did some funner activities during the day. It is what it is though, this is adulting! After work I went to the eye doctor and luckily I found out that I have perfect vision and don’t need glasses (ayyy!). My dad suggested I find out before I get off his A1 insurance, so I’m glad getting glasses isn’t something I have to worry about. After my appointment, I went to the Cheesecake Factory with my fam and it was so much fun. My family, the salmon and Oreo cheesecake was the perfect ending to an amazing day.
I am honestly tired of being broke and in debt. I haven’t been financially responsible at all this year and in 2019 I am DETERMINED to make some changes. The partying and eating out has been so unproductive and caused me to gain so much weight. After throwing up an entire Nation’s burger and milkshake, you start to reflect LOL. But no seriously, at the end of the day eating out and partying only provides short term satisfaction. I know that staying home, meal prepping and not succumbing to peer pressure will pay off in the end. Although a lot of my friends will feel some type of way about my lifestyle changes, I have to put me first. A lot of the times I go out I’m doing it for them and I’d rather be home, but in 2019 that shit is dead. I am going to be much more productive and really follow the budget I have created for myself. Wish me luck!
As usual my love life is a joke LOL. I met someone I was really vibing with and of course he ended up telling me out of the blue that he “wants to focus on his career”. He completely led me on and sold me a dream which is not what I expected from someone so much older than me (7+ years). But it is what it is. This situation almost made me feel anti men, but I won’t let all these frogs discourage me from finding my King. I refuse to be a bitter black women despite the luck that I’ve had dating.
As you all know, I’ve been really stressed about finding my next living situation, but lo and behold I found it! The place I found is a little pricier than my current home, but it’s worth it, because for once in my life I will have my own bathroom! I will be living with a stranger so some people are concerned, but honestly I have to do what I have to do. Since I will be living in an apartment now instead of a house, I will now have access to a work out room, a pool and a hot tub. I am very excited for this move and I think I will be happy living here! All I can do is hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
So my new job is okay, but I need something better. There are no benefits, there’s no holiday pay and the pay is mediocre. I needed this job to make ends meet, but after a month of being here, I realize that I can’t get complacent.
I am happy to report that my entrepreneurial endeavors are doing really well. I picked up a few more clients who need social media management and I have a few other long term projects I will be involved in. I really hope that I keep gaining clients and can focus on Queen Media Collective and my side projects full time. I am giving myself a year to really focus and grow my business so I don’t have to work for anyone ever again. At this point in life I’m truly over it. I just feel like I have too many ideas and goals to be answering phones and booking appointments for someone’s company. I won’t be irrational and quit like I did a couple months ago, but I can’t deny that I am over it.
With all the upcoming projects I have, I have decided that I am going to take a two month hiatus from writing to focus on the business side of things. Writing will always be my first love, but I want to put all my energy into Queen Media Collective: Live! (more details coming soon) and the other projects I am going to be involved in. I don’t want to take this break, because there are so many blogs I have thought about and want to write for you guys. However, I know that to be successful in other areas, I have to make this sacrifice. The hiatus is the reason I am giving you guys an update on all areas of my life! Best believe that when I start writing again in March, you guys will get another one.
In a few hours it will be a new year and I just want to end it by saying thank you so much for reading my Reckless Behavior articles! You guys have no idea how much it means to me. The responses and amount of support that I have gotten in the last year has been such a blessing. I hope everyone has a Happy New Year and is ready to flourish in 2019!
I love you all and God Bless. This isn’t goodbye, it’s see you later 🙂