I am finally going on a vacation! I bought my plane ticket and I am not looking back. I am so excited to leave California. I have never went on a trip alone and I have only been to a couple places in general. I have went on two cruises to Mexico, a couple trips to Las Vegas, a family trip to Missouri and a trip to Hawaii. Other than that, I have not been anywhere else.
At the age of 23, I feel like this is exactly what I need to be doing… traveling and living life. I always stay in the area, because I am scared. I am literally the most paranoid person ever and I worry about planes crashing, some Taken type of situation happening or something happening to my loved ones while I am away. I know that is a terrible way to live, but that is just how I am. I always live cautiously, which is extremely boring and redundant. Therefore, I am trying to change and be more spontaneous. This trip was completely unexpected. In three weeks I will be out of California experiencing something brand new. I am ready to meet people, eat new foods and sight see. Am I nervous? Yes! Extremely… but I am also excited. I feel liberated and free to do whatever I want to do. Some people may think I am being dramatic, but I am really not. To never go anywhere alone, or do anything alone is exhausting and unhealthy. At this point, I have created a new bucket list and I plan on making a lot of moves before the year is over.
Another thing I have had on my mind is purpose. I am starting to realize that everyone in life has a purpose whether it is short term or long term. I have been connecting and reconnecting with a lot of people and I constantly wonder how long someone will be in my life. It is hard to live life and not wonder about something like this… I have people that I have known for years who are still around, but there are also people who I thought would be around forever and were gone in a season. I have some amazing people in my life right now and I wouldn’t want to lose any of them.
Each person (males and females) are teaching me different life lessons. I love the circle of friends I have, but these new people in my life are opening my eyes to topics, people and things I have never thought of. I love having debates and discussions with people… I am very open minded and I feel like I grow a little bit more everyday. I am less judgmental and much more accepting of things I was once unfamiliar with. I like it. My new favorite quote that I saw on Being Mary Jane is “We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us”.
I like this quote, because I definitely have my entire life planned, and become extremely stressed whenever things go any other way. However, I am now planning to go with the flow and see what happens. Whether the people in my life are permanent additions or guest stars in my life, I still appreciate them. I am trying to not regret building relationships with people when the situation suddenly changes. Sometimes people fulfill they’re purpose in your life and then they leave… that’s just the way it is. Analyzing everyone’s different role in my life and how we benefit each other makes me truly appreciate life.